Monthly Archives: November 2014

November Project

frustrated learning

NaNoWriMo did not work very well for me this year.  I had a great idea in my head and stuck with it throughout this month, but I didn’t get very many words.  For the first few days I was on track and then I just ran out of juice.  I reread what I had written, which is pretty much a NaNoWriMo sin, and hated it.  I couldn’t go anywhere with what I had read.  So NaNoWriMo was a fail this year.

But I did not give up on my learning project though.  I finally drew the tattoo my artist asked me to draw.  I have yet to hear what the client thinks of it, but my artist loves it, as well as several other friends.  So my fingers are crossed.  It would be awesome to see my drawing on someone’s body.  It just sounds crazy, to think about seeing my drawing walking around town.

I want to use what I have learned to help me inspire students to seek out their passions.  I hated drawing, for the longest time, until I watched my tattoo artist drawing.  It gave me a push to try drawing, and that little push is what gave me something to do when I feel stressed or out of sorts.  Drawing lets me mull over my thoughts while still keeping my body and brain active.  I want to help kids achieve this same feeling.  I want to help them find their passion and help them ignite the light to reach their goals and passions.

Even though I failed at NaNoWriMo I still learned a valuable lesson.  Failure is normal.  It happens and I just have to learn from it and move on.  I’m not going to stop writing, and I’m not going to let my failure haunt my mind.  I have to let it go and move on to a new project.

Failure is ok.  Calm down

Still Afraid

Although I’ve been in several classes with inspiring teachers, watching videos and reading articles or posts about becoming a teacher that will help in the education revolution, I’m still very frightened to proceed down the path I have chosen.  I think being afraid is normal, many students in college change their majors several times before they find something that they want to do for the rest of their life.  I know I want to be a teacher, but I just don’t know if I’m ready.

I guess the only thing that will make me get over my fear is to face it and try my best.  I know that I want to change a student’s life, and I know that in order to do that I need to be inspiring like all my previous and present teachers.  I just am afraid to go out into the world, fresh from college with all these new ideas, and bring them into a school that’s focused on tradition.

We once watched a video with Will Richardson as the speaker, that told us that we need confusion to transform education.  I guess it’s a good thing that I am confused and afraid, I just don’t like the way it feels.  I guess I just want to be in control, and that’s the feeling I need to let go.